Wednesday, February 2, 2011

oster blenders are not all that

i was surprised to find that oster blenders can break into a million pieces
that email accounts can be hijacked
that lost souls reappear
and that my gmail phone can ring.

i was surprised to find that there are people who will not take no for an answer,
not after twentythree times and seventeen different ones at that,
and will continue to ask "tomorrow? can i see you tomorrow?"
and make me wish they'd turn away and find somebody else.

i was surprised to find that there are meds for dogs that make them crave more,
that you can get them for free,
and that they are good for six years.

i was surprised to find that i'd much rather not be seen than not see you.
i was surprised to find that i feel free now that a different you is gone.
i was surprised to find that leaving could leave me breathless with joy, not fear.
i was surprised to find that there is so much more out there, behind this fence.
i was surprised to find that i don't feel obliged to stick this out.
i was surprised to find that it's not always better to breathe.
i was surprised to find that counsel can be counterintuitive.
i was surprised to find that they still sell old spice.

i was not surprised at the old man's advice to be subservient.
i was not surprised at her silence.
i was surprised that no one asked why.

i am surprised to find that despite what you said, i'm still down for forever,
and up,
and that i don't know what to do.